congrats to myself =D
i've finally conqured the 1st wk of my attatchment...
10more days!

tis time, im posted to the colonrectal dept
wad can i say, LOL
the smell of stoma is so.......
toxificying!=X
its somtimes too unbearable but thx gooodness, for once,i wasnt in the aircon side coz the smell there flows~

*stoma = faces,but it comes out frm the opening of the intestine instead of the anus. stoma bag collects the stoma.

patients warded into this dept usually hab colon-rectal probs. lotsa interesting tinks to learn...the sisters there r v nice too =D one of the nicest i've eva been too...hahas.


i've tot abt lotsa tinks.
i really wan my freedom back.
i hate being controlled.
if its ur emotions tat oways control u,
u can nv b urself.
wad more, give the best u can to me.

tis has got to end.
i've been prayin hard for the day to come.
u nid to stop hurting me.
physically n emotionally.
im tired.

i kno wad i wan myself,
i kno, im too soft
i cant stand up for my own rights with u
i cant be the real me.

u promised wad u culdnt give.
gave me a hope which i culdnt hold on to.
it hurts too deeply inside
i dun wana resort to physical abuse again
i'll b hurting the creation of my wonderful parents.
i can imagine the amt of hurt in their eyes.

let me go,
let me fly,
let me find myself again,
i nid the real me.