Thursday, December 29, 2005
its been a mth..a mth since i made e decision to b his..happiness..saddness..and fear all came over me..
was it a rite choice or my funeral?
sometimes i feel lyk e luckiest woman on earth but there r oso times wen i feel tat i was a dumb ass to walk into tis path..i wonder hw my life wld b if i had nt chosen tis path..
he treats me well..too gd at times..picks me up from work everyday w/o fail..much much beta den my previous who oways said but dint do any action. i still rmb e time wen he came over at 3pm,my break time..den we went to eat n i wen back bout 5plus..he didnt left e place at all..he wen upstairs e library n waited till 11pm for me..i mean who in e world wld do tat..wait so long 4 some1..i can say tat i cant do tat..he's jus so wonderful=)
he cooks for me too>.< in e middle of e nite..wen my tummy starts 2 growl..haha..purposely take e effort, prepare so much ingrediants n cook so many wonderful dishes..yummy!!
however..at times, he can b real scarry..too scarry for me to take.i duno..mayb guys temper oways so scarry..but his temper is one tat i cant really take..violent..i guess i wont b writin e violent stuff out..hais~jus hope tat tis temper wld cool down one day..
but he is nice..really nice..one of e nicest man i`ve eva met..he made me fall in love wif him..deeply..nw,he is lyk a part of me n i cant live w/o him..a part of me wld b lost w/o him being by mine side..i oso dun wanna rely on him too much coz i dun wanna b lost e day wen i part wif him..i wanna b hapi..live happily wif him. - foreva-
may all dreams cum to reality..
LOVED @ 1:52 AM
Sunday, December 11, 2005
i miss u..i duno hw to explain hw much i really miss u..
u jus keep appearing in my mind..the more i dun wanna tink bout u..e more u keep appearing..i hate myself,..hate myslef 4 fallin so deeply in love wif u..i've gotten myself into such a mess tat i myself duno hw 2 get out..
help me!!
i wanna b free..e times we spend,thou short, but it seems lyk a life time to me...i wanna 4get..but i dun tink i can.. hais.
i jus hope tat tinks wld return back to normal..
i will love YOU..nt u...
LOVED @ 11:10 PM