hais~

the sun shone brightly n i was happy to wake up on e right side of my bed..
everytink went on smoothly..
but it all came to an end wen........

daniel called -.- i mean excuse me..my day was so wonderful..but...hais~ was it my fault? i just dun wanna care..i didnt say much too.. no point askin me tis n tat coz i wont giv a shitty damn bout his relationship.. im nt being vulgar sayin tat he is e cause if everytink or wad..it jus all started with tis matter... thx goodness he was understandin nt to call or msg again..

the second BAD incident was tat nicholas.. 1st, he msg..i heck..den giv miss call -.-lll wth lor.. it pissed him off! n i am left to clear up e mess..i jus dun wanna make things big..i wanna heck... he just dun understand... hais~

i hope 4 his understandin...i hav given up lots of stuff..mayb he cant see it..but im sure he will one day..
hais~

so many things hab happpend.. realtionship, friendship, family..bla bla..

so many tink so b thankful of..his parents..being so understnadin..tokin to him bout e stuff tat was so hard to b get into him...friends..being so thoughful of me..hopin tat im fine all e time..family..always being there when u didnt kno they wld.. THX - i dun wanna cry..all these little efforts, make a big part of e turning point in my life..

im still young. i kno. so many tinks i hav yet to discover n experience..but deep within me..there r actully more stuff for u to discover bout me..so pls dun tink tat u can read me n dun u eva say or tink tat ' i am a kid'. the most foolish one wld b sayin tis coz..only a kid, a small little animal =x, wld nt kno how to find better words to put tat phrase into a better hearing piece. im nt repremanding u..u jus hav to wake up from tat dream.. - i hope u will -

jus an outing..caused so much trouble..shld i b thankful for not being able to make it or b in deep soup bcoz i wld b e 3rd party again..tryin to fit e pieces back together... sign~ u r all my frens..my beloved frens..i dun wish to c us apart..we played together, spent our sec sch lives together, stayed wif one another wen either of us were down, lent a listening ear to those who needed a cry out, studied for our o levels together, laughed together, shopped in a group, went to get our results together...bla bla bla.. now everytink is cmoin to an end? our story hasnt even go past the begining...
mayb if i were there, tinks wld nt hav end up in tis way..
both parties hav to willingly giv in..or else.....

- i can only hope n pray -

hmm..ggoin to b 3 mths le bahx..he has been good to me..i really appreciate it..
thou there were unhappy timess..he nv fail to cheer me up..yes, his temper changed..i believe he can still do beta..

thinkin back..i kno wad it finally means by supportin each other in a relationship le..last time? wtf..dun wanna mention.. i jus dun wanna recall..it was hell.. i dun wanna go all mushy n stuff to say so much stuff..most of them wld b kept deep in my heart.. -carved onto it-

his family is gd too..esp his parents..everytime bring us out to eatvgd food.. his parents r so much beta..make me feel so welcomed n stuff.. rare breed..lols! his sis..lols..hw do i phrase it..im scared of her..scared she kpkb..lol..nono..she nv kp me..lol..i jus a bit scared of her..
but..his 2 dogs..pepper n miki..they r so lovely..lols..they duno bite thou they oways bark at strangers..lols..they r so cute n sweet..nice nice guai guai de >.< im so attatched to them..haha!


its so late n he is still playin his beloved ps2..lols.. me? stuck to my lvl 36 mage in maple! lols! i will nt giv up..perservere till e end.. >.<


the other day, tp called me to go doen for e interview for my tourism course..hais~ duno hw well did i fare..i desp wanna go into tourism!! die die oso mux go..if cant mayb i go Harvord or other private sch..sobs.. wait 4 me tourism..i will come..lols


i guess i will end here bahx..

as out love grow stronger each day,
i promise tat i will hold on to u stronger..

tis might sound amusing but...its a total fact..e pl at my wrk place are all posers.. cant they hav their own fashion sense..

damn it..i jus cant stand it wen i c them..all a photocopy of me..wtf lor!

after i did my hair n wore colour contacts, 3 of them wen to rebond n out of e 3, 2 wen to get colour contacts too! koaz..wad is tis world becomin of..damn it..i jus cant take it down! mux fa qi..
and guess wad..e lesbian gal who hinted me tat she lyk me is oso 1 of them! OMG!!!!! save me..... Fuck it!

eeks..e place they jus giv me e creeps..its nt lyk i am so in e fashion trend or wad..but..they jus dun hav their own fashion sense! irritating..now..almost all..oso can say all...the gals there all look e fuckin same... DAMN!@

mayb i shld jus shave my hair..see if they follow..esp tat lesbian! eek! makes my hair stand..
mayb they jus wanna b lyk me..but..too bad.............WAHAHAHA!


i am who i am..pls dun b another photocopy of me..
hav ur own fuckin style!

argh!